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AshleeLin05
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Name: Ashlee
Location: Lincoln, Nebraska, United States
Birthday: 8/5/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: soccer, shopping, Singing, dancing, laughing, hanging out with friends, watching sports (football, baseball, and hockey mostly), spending time with friends and family back home, eating (especially Runza, Amigos, Valentinos, Grisantis, and homecooked meals)
Expertise: Student
Occupation: Student Ambassador
Industry: Admissions Office
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Soccerchica113
MSN: AshleeLin05@hotmail.com
Member Since:
3/23/2005
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wow its been two months since my last post. I just checked today's postsecrets and this was among them. Although I didn't write it or send it in, I found it to be very true in my life. When I was pregnant with Trevor and when I gave birth, I knew certain people would stand by me, like my family and a couple friends. I had no idea that some of my friends would give up on me though. And I had no idea how many TRUE friends I really had. Trevor has been the best thing in my life, a true gift and blessing. He's also helped me realize who these true friends are, they are the people who didnt turn their back, the people who have offered to watch trev even for twenty minutes so I can get a break, the people who offer to change poopy diapers, the people who, when trev cries, dont automatically hand him back to me, but try to comfort him, because they care. I am so grateful for the blessings that God has given me, especially Trevor, my family, and true friends. | | |
| oh gosh. He's the most wonderful baby ever.
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| Just when I thought my life was turning around, just when I thought nothing else could go wrong, just when I thought my life was back on track, just when I thought I was happy again, just when I thought God was blessing me... things changed. My life's back at an all-time low. My grandpa went in for heart surgery this morning at 7:30 am. When the doctors came to update my family at 3:30 pm, they said the surgery could last up to 4 more hours. My dad called me at 7:45 pm, and my grandpa had died on the operating table. He wasnt strong enough to make it through the surgery. Where do you go from here? Both of my dad's parents are now dead. And it's all happened within the last five months. They'll never get to see me go back to school. They'll never see me turn my life around. They'll never see me fall in love and get married. Or have kids. Or anything. It hurts so bad knowing that the last time I saw my grandpa, I didnt stay and talk to him as long as I could have. I didnt want to. I didnt treat him very well that last time I saw him, all I was concerned about was myself and leaving as soon as I could to go home and take a nap. A NAP. My grandpa should have been more important to me than a nap, but for some reason that day I only cared about me. My last goodbye to him was nothing more than a hurried "bye". Its so hard. I can't be this selfish person anymore. It only hurts those I care about and in the end hurts me. | | |
| The girls are coming this weekend to see me and celebrate with me. I'm pretty excited. I havent seen them in two months. We have a lot of catching up to do. | | |
| I had this really strange dream last night and as weird as this sounds, I think it was from God, to help me accept the situation I'm in and eventually use this situation to help others. Its amazing to think of how things just work out in the end, especially when at the beginning, things look like they wont ever get better. For awhile I felt like I had let everyone down, especially God. My family and friends suprised me. They've been so supportive and understanding about everything. I've finally come to terms with everything and I know that God has forgiven me, and blessed me so much. I'm so thankful to have His love, as well as the love of my friends and family. | | |
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